New year, new me.

How cliché is it that I'm writing a New Years blog? It would probably be worse if I kept up with my blog regularly and this was just another one of the annoying reminders that people get wistful and nostalgic and begin full on prognosticating the many and varied changes they will greet head on in the new year. But, I don't keep up and I'm mostly unconcerned about the bars other people are setting for themselves this year. I have one bar. One resolution. One promise to myself and by extension, the people around me. I will be selfish. I will wake up in the morning and pray first for myself. I will live by the decisions I need to make for me. I will close my day with gratitude and more prayers to keep me on the straight and narrow. Because the only thing I really desperately want for this next year and those that follow is my sobriety. I want to stay clean. I know it's possible because I'm surrounded by support. I have my NA family now and, really, you couldn't ask for better people to lean on, to support, and to be supported by. This is a hard journey and sort of terrifying, but so worth it. Thank you to ALL of my family for encouraging and forgiving me, for loving me and calling me on my shit, for continuing to force on me my own worth. I love you all with all of my heart.